New Blog for August 2010

Ok so this month has been what I like to call my realization month. I realize that life is not always what I want it to be and that things happen for a reason rather it be good or bad or a lesson that I have already learned 20x over but still didn't learn from. My life tends to be a clock. I always start at 12 and move forward and think I am really going forward at a great speed until I realize that when I get at the top Im at 12 again. So my life seems to be a repeat pattern. Now my question is to myself how to break away from that patterning and move away instead of around. I figured out that if I accept one thing in my life that is bad for me that the rest follows and so forth. I am a big believer in decluttering and have wrote several blogs on it and it is a major part of my new CD coming out this month soon. I just came out of my psychic closet about 3 years ago. I have never read a psychic book or talked to other psychics or even gotten readings from other psychics. Not that there is anything wrong with other psychics I just never knew anyone was like me until recently. I always knew I could see things about people in grocery stores that I never knew or teachers or friends etc... But never really looked at it as a gift. I was in 19 foster homes until I was adopted at age 11 and then I was adopted into a strict catholic family and I dare never talk about things I saw or was told that someone would lock me up for sure so I just never did. I guess I am just a country girl that doesn't know all the spirituality things or understand a lot of how I can do what I do or the moons and stars, all I do know is that I see things and for some reason I seem to be very detailed and accurate. All I really ever do is say what I see. So here is my question? Why if I am so good that I can see for others then why can I not see for myself? My answer is because I am too personal and close to the situation that I cannot look at it open minded. Its easy for me to do readings for other people because I can look at it for what it is and although I can do that for myself I always seem to talk myself out of what I see. Human nature kicks in I guess. So I guess the real question is how to change that? That is a lesson I am still learning.